Sad

So sad..... : ( tadi aku tengok private practice ..ada one scene whereby the this mother just gave birth to a baby boy and she is not happy because she already have 3 boys.Then Naomi the doctor told her that she should be glad tau sebab ada je couple who couldn't concieve tau.At that point of time tears at my eye's.....i really felt it because i dont even have any yet.......sad sad......and far more infact today i suppose to be in the labour room or at the hospital because my due date is tomorrow......so sad sad...i donno when ill get over this feeling...its already 3 month plus but yet the feeling still there still feel sad sad sad when i think back......i hope Allah will give me the strenght to get over it.I really miss being pregnant and i miss my baby really miss ...this few days i donno why i can smell her...like she is here with me..i miss her......Aisyah mommy rindu awak Aisyah...semoga awak abadi di Syurga and menanti kedatangan mommy and abah disana ye.Her thomb stone dah siap tapi aku tak gi tengok lagi..sebab aku tak ada daya nak gi tengok ........aku takut aku nangis lagik.....even tengah taip ni pun aku nangis sebab aku terkenang kan anak aku.Ya Allah bagi lah aku kekuatan, tolong lah hamba mu ini.